2nd day on the floor (still on orientation)
Today I got my first patient. Lol, having all kinds of anxious feelings about this. Having someone watch me is scary, so I'm not sure how I feel about that. Also, I'm not too sure about the charting. And I feel bad about waking them up. I want the patients to sleep bc it's better for their health, but I also want them to be awake so that I can do my assessment, lol. Idk.
--okay
UPDATE. OH MY GOSH. I said thank you, but why did I have to get a nonverbal patient on my first day? lol, I already stink at communication, but now I got somebody who can't even meet me halfway??? lol, the Lord was definitely testing me today.
And then the stupid air bubbles. Oh my gosh, I HATE BUBBLES. I'm so sick of 'em. All they do is eat up my time and they're just SUCH JERKS. Oh my gosh. There's got to be a better way. I'm just so sick of it. Sick of IT! Ugh. Bubbles kill me.
Idk man. There's so much information and there's so much public relations in it iall, I just really have no clue. And it's sad. I don't know if I'm cut out for this.
It's only been a day but I feel like I'm dying. But tbh, I think if I just keep trying, maybe I'll get better, idk. I just want to be a good nurse. And I haven't seen a nurse that's perfect yet. But I just...idk, I just want to be someone that helps my patients. I don't want to become jaded.
I'm tired guys. And I have a huge headache.
Idk. The other group I wasn't a big fan of potluck but they were conservative like me. This group goes out to eat afterwards which I also can't afford, lol but they're more liberal. And I don't mean that in terms of politics. Just personality wise.
I think I messed up. Idk.
Charting was hard too. And there are so many unnecessary things. I don't like this aspect of healthcare where we have to call doctors for orders. Honestly, I believe every floor should have a doctor that we can just go to and ask, like in the ICU.
And all this technology and charting and people suing one another, I think we've forgotten what nursing is suppose to be about.
I feel like today we are more concerned about documentation and making sure we don't get sued instead of spending time. And making calls. Oh my gosh. We have to call about everything. How are we supposed to do anything if our feet is tied?
Idk. It's hard to stay motivated. And the pay stinks. Oh man. Idk, what I'm doing with my life.
Oh, I also think I messed up on charting and everybody hates me.
Idk. I really don't know. Help me God.
--okay
UPDATE. OH MY GOSH. I said thank you, but why did I have to get a nonverbal patient on my first day? lol, I already stink at communication, but now I got somebody who can't even meet me halfway??? lol, the Lord was definitely testing me today.
And then the stupid air bubbles. Oh my gosh, I HATE BUBBLES. I'm so sick of 'em. All they do is eat up my time and they're just SUCH JERKS. Oh my gosh. There's got to be a better way. I'm just so sick of it. Sick of IT! Ugh. Bubbles kill me.
Idk man. There's so much information and there's so much public relations in it iall, I just really have no clue. And it's sad. I don't know if I'm cut out for this.
It's only been a day but I feel like I'm dying. But tbh, I think if I just keep trying, maybe I'll get better, idk. I just want to be a good nurse. And I haven't seen a nurse that's perfect yet. But I just...idk, I just want to be someone that helps my patients. I don't want to become jaded.
I'm tired guys. And I have a huge headache.
Idk. The other group I wasn't a big fan of potluck but they were conservative like me. This group goes out to eat afterwards which I also can't afford, lol but they're more liberal. And I don't mean that in terms of politics. Just personality wise.
I think I messed up. Idk.
Charting was hard too. And there are so many unnecessary things. I don't like this aspect of healthcare where we have to call doctors for orders. Honestly, I believe every floor should have a doctor that we can just go to and ask, like in the ICU.
And all this technology and charting and people suing one another, I think we've forgotten what nursing is suppose to be about.
I feel like today we are more concerned about documentation and making sure we don't get sued instead of spending time. And making calls. Oh my gosh. We have to call about everything. How are we supposed to do anything if our feet is tied?
Idk. It's hard to stay motivated. And the pay stinks. Oh man. Idk, what I'm doing with my life.
Oh, I also think I messed up on charting and everybody hates me.
Idk. I really don't know. Help me God.
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