5th and last day or orientation (in classroom)
lol, so today was my last day of classroom orientation. Kind of sad, and completely exhausted. I'm so tired of lectures and today I didn't have my seat buddy with me.
Tbh, having to socialize 3 days in a row, today I was at my limit. Usually I would try to fake enthusiam, but today I was all pooped out. I just stared at my phone during breaks. Unfortunately, my boss came and visited on this day. It was such a shock. I have such bad luck. lol.
And at lunch I actually sat alone.
I was prepared for it.
I didn't really want to talk to anybody. Bc then I would have to fake being interested and fake laugh and smile while they talked about things that I really didn't care about.
So even though I looked like a loner, I maybe cared a little, but not enough to look around and sit with my classmates.
But then surprise, surprise. A friend actually showed up! lol, she could have sat with our classmates since she knows them, but she sat with me and that was really nice. She also had a friend with her and she was also really nice.
And bc they were my friends (I don't usually have friends, remember?), we tended to be on the same link so there was no pressure to talk about things that were uninteresting. So that was wonderful.
After lunch, we had to sit through more lectures, and it was fine, but I was tired and totally ready to be done by the end of it. I'm glad we got paid for this, but having it back to back was so much information overload, I'm sure I wasn't even going to remember half of it.
The orientation made the hospital seem like a beautiful and wonderful place, but I felt like it painted the hospital in its most idealistic light. I know that everything they said we should do, we definitely don't do and it kind of makes me sad.
On the one hand I don't want to make waves, but I would like to implement good and improving changes too. I'm not sure yet which one I'm gonna follow. But all I can say is that God, whatever happens, please watch over and guide me.
Tbh, having to socialize 3 days in a row, today I was at my limit. Usually I would try to fake enthusiam, but today I was all pooped out. I just stared at my phone during breaks. Unfortunately, my boss came and visited on this day. It was such a shock. I have such bad luck. lol.
And at lunch I actually sat alone.
I was prepared for it.
I didn't really want to talk to anybody. Bc then I would have to fake being interested and fake laugh and smile while they talked about things that I really didn't care about.
So even though I looked like a loner, I maybe cared a little, but not enough to look around and sit with my classmates.
But then surprise, surprise. A friend actually showed up! lol, she could have sat with our classmates since she knows them, but she sat with me and that was really nice. She also had a friend with her and she was also really nice.
And bc they were my friends (I don't usually have friends, remember?), we tended to be on the same link so there was no pressure to talk about things that were uninteresting. So that was wonderful.
After lunch, we had to sit through more lectures, and it was fine, but I was tired and totally ready to be done by the end of it. I'm glad we got paid for this, but having it back to back was so much information overload, I'm sure I wasn't even going to remember half of it.
The orientation made the hospital seem like a beautiful and wonderful place, but I felt like it painted the hospital in its most idealistic light. I know that everything they said we should do, we definitely don't do and it kind of makes me sad.
On the one hand I don't want to make waves, but I would like to implement good and improving changes too. I'm not sure yet which one I'm gonna follow. But all I can say is that God, whatever happens, please watch over and guide me.
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