1st day of orientation
First of all. I just want to say thank you and sorry to all the parents out there. To all the hard work that you do and all the expenses that you do and all the pain and suffering we kids put you through...I seriously don't know how you do it, but I'm thankful.
Okay. So this is going to be a thing where I'm going to give a summary (I want it to be brief, but I blab a lot. Just when I write though; I'm pretty much just a listener and nodder in real life). And 2 things that I learned in that day. And 2 things that I can improve on. We'll try to gradually improve that to 5 and 10, but not sure.
So today was first day of orientation. I was terrified. I woke up from a nightmare where we had to get into groups and go shopping for our uniform and everybody buddied up but it was an odd number and so I was alone...
lol story of my life. Still sad though. So I woke up today in a very negative mood. But thinking, well, whatever comes will come. I can't stop it.
So anyways got there a little early. Oh! I decided on business casual. And brought my back pack with me that had all my papers, a water bottle, granola bar, and umbrella bc it was supposed to rain at 3-5 and it was suppose to end at 5. I love the inventor of the backpack. So convenient. It's like the upgraded and more trendy version of the fanny pack.
Anyways...
Before I could get lost, there was a guy that was all, "are you here for orientation?" and he directed me and it was so sweet. lol.
AND YOU'LL NEVER BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED??? I ran into someone I went to high school with! And someone from nursing school! It was so nice to know someone at orientation! I had someone to talk to and someone to eat lunch with!
Anyways I got there around 7:45. And talked until we started at 8. Honestly, I had no clue what was going to happen. But I was SO EXCITED TO SEE SOMEONE I KNEW!! You guys have no idea how much I struggle with talking to people. Being shy is kind of a killer in the hospitality industry.
So the guy introduced himself. We introduced ourselves. I got my badge. I turned out looking yellow but that's okay bc I wasn't the only one.
We watched an inspirational video about the foundation of the hospital. Learned about the values the hospital was based on. Took a couple of breaks. Played a jeopardy game. Apparently this isn't how all orientations go. Since it's a faith based hospital they wanted to dedicate the first day of orientation learning about the mission and what the hospital is based on and I think that's wonderful.
I loved it. It made me inspired to work. It made me see an ideal vision of what hospitals should be like.
Alas, I'm sure once I get on the floor, the reality of it will crash down on me. But I'm gonna keep this treasure in my heart bc we should want to help others. We should strive to treat people without prejudice and bias. As flawed as we humans are, we were created in the image of God. GOD. YOU GUYS. THE CREATOR OF EVERYTHING.
WE WERE CREATED IN THAT IMAGE.
And so I know that in all of us, even when it doesn't seem like it, we want to do good. And we can. And it may be a battle, but it's a battle we should strive to win everyday. And I think a hospital that teaches that...is something we need more of in this world. Now I know that bc we teach that unbiased there are people who have different faiths so they may act different, but I hope that we can all come together and help people as Jesus would have.
Okay, back to the orientation. We went to lunch. So glad I didn't bring my lunch. They actually gave us lunch! What?! It was delicious. Chicken strips and french fries. It was like high school all over again. WHY MUST DELICIOUS FOOD BE SO TERRIBLE FOR ME??? I REGRET NOTHING!!!
lol. ate lunch and then went back. Had a different speaker. This time we went over benefits and retirement. And let me just say. Whooo. Everything went over my head. It was SO COMPLICATED. AND SO EXPENSIVE! I must be a dolt bc I didn't understand a bit! I knew being an adult was hard and complicated, which is why I didn't want to do it!!! But, I can't turn back the clock! And turns out it's all online and so I can't even talk to a real person and I have to call the manager lady for the password and why does everything in the adult world comprise of making phone calls to each other????? This is my most hated form of communication!!!
So we actually got out early. Around 3:30. Turns out I bought the wrong scrubs. Paid 60$ for nothing. Apparently the scrubs needed to have the hospital logo on them. Screw me. Lol. So texted a classmate about my woe. She found a dealer somewhere in town that was able to get me a deal for used ones. They were a size smaller than I am. But I'll just lose weight. They were so much cheaper than news one, I had to do it.
I'm scared. Bc no one has called me about my schedule. You'd think they would. But they haven't. God give me the will and power to do what You have planned.
Thus ends day one! And I got paid for that! Hazzah!
Learned:
1. You gotta have dreams. You gotta have goals. An inspiration to hold onto. And when you find that. Hold onto it, bc it will get you through those days where you wonder what the heck am I doing? I learned something that I had forgotten bc of the stress of nursing school and clinicals:
I love helping people. I love people. I really do. I mean they can be total piranhas sometimes, but I think we forget that even though we are sin. We are also people chosen by God to be saved. He saw something in us. Something that was worth saving. And I think that's...incredible. We are worth it. And thus we should treat people like that. Bc they are worth it. Just like you are.
2. Being an adult is like being thrown into a tornado and expected to take reins of the tornado and ride it through a maze WITHOUT BREAKING ANYTHING. Otherwise known as epically failing. At least for me. lol. Idk how people do this. Idk how millions of people do this. I'm always worried I'm going to make a mistake. Hah, maybe that should be something on my improve on list. Anyways, I'm relying on my mom (she's a saint!) a lot right now bc I have no clue about these benefits and job and insurance and my head is spinning from the overload of information. Help me. Please. Build me a time machine.
Improve on:
1. Okay so there was a girl at our table. And she was really pretty. And she was really nice. And really outgoing. And bc I was a total loner my whole life, my first thought was to hate her. BC SHE HAD EVERYTHING. She was married and had 3 kids, but she looked like she was 20. Blond. Tall. Skinny. Pretty. AND FREAKING NICE. It killed me. I was green with envy. I was a jerk. Bc she's what I've always wanted to be and so at certain points I would catch myself being a jerk. Like not laughing when she said something funny. Not paying attention when she was talking. SERIOUSLY, I'M SUCH A JERK. AND I'M SO SORRY. I need to work on not caring about other people and concentrate on myself. Everybody has strengths and everybody has weaknesses. I don't know her life. I'm so sorry. But I did try to catch myself when I was being a jerk. I would catch myself thinking bad thoughts and just concentrate on what she was saying and take it as if she was someone not above average. lol, seriously I'm such a jerk. But I'm gonna work on it. It's a process, people!
2. Being more verbal. Okay so this is a life long goal. I want to shed my shyness bc I feel like it would be beneficial, but I also feel like a hypocrite if I do. Like I'm abandoning myself and trying to change who I am. And I grew up on that whole never compromise who you are to please others principle, so it's very conflicting. So I never really full wholeheartedly try to be loud and talkative bc it always feels...wrong. Idk. I'm still gonna work more on being able to answer questions and share stories in groups bc apparently that's how friends are made.
And I need friends you guys. I'm lonely. And apparently, I'm devoid of human contact. So thank you God for letting me meet that high school classmate! And for letting me survive my first day! May the days that come forth be according to Your Will and help me find the strength and courage to do as You have planned.
Okay. So this is going to be a thing where I'm going to give a summary (I want it to be brief, but I blab a lot. Just when I write though; I'm pretty much just a listener and nodder in real life). And 2 things that I learned in that day. And 2 things that I can improve on. We'll try to gradually improve that to 5 and 10, but not sure.
So today was first day of orientation. I was terrified. I woke up from a nightmare where we had to get into groups and go shopping for our uniform and everybody buddied up but it was an odd number and so I was alone...
lol story of my life. Still sad though. So I woke up today in a very negative mood. But thinking, well, whatever comes will come. I can't stop it.
So anyways got there a little early. Oh! I decided on business casual. And brought my back pack with me that had all my papers, a water bottle, granola bar, and umbrella bc it was supposed to rain at 3-5 and it was suppose to end at 5. I love the inventor of the backpack. So convenient. It's like the upgraded and more trendy version of the fanny pack.
Anyways...
Before I could get lost, there was a guy that was all, "are you here for orientation?" and he directed me and it was so sweet. lol.
AND YOU'LL NEVER BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED??? I ran into someone I went to high school with! And someone from nursing school! It was so nice to know someone at orientation! I had someone to talk to and someone to eat lunch with!
Anyways I got there around 7:45. And talked until we started at 8. Honestly, I had no clue what was going to happen. But I was SO EXCITED TO SEE SOMEONE I KNEW!! You guys have no idea how much I struggle with talking to people. Being shy is kind of a killer in the hospitality industry.
So the guy introduced himself. We introduced ourselves. I got my badge. I turned out looking yellow but that's okay bc I wasn't the only one.
We watched an inspirational video about the foundation of the hospital. Learned about the values the hospital was based on. Took a couple of breaks. Played a jeopardy game. Apparently this isn't how all orientations go. Since it's a faith based hospital they wanted to dedicate the first day of orientation learning about the mission and what the hospital is based on and I think that's wonderful.
I loved it. It made me inspired to work. It made me see an ideal vision of what hospitals should be like.
Alas, I'm sure once I get on the floor, the reality of it will crash down on me. But I'm gonna keep this treasure in my heart bc we should want to help others. We should strive to treat people without prejudice and bias. As flawed as we humans are, we were created in the image of God. GOD. YOU GUYS. THE CREATOR OF EVERYTHING.
WE WERE CREATED IN THAT IMAGE.
And so I know that in all of us, even when it doesn't seem like it, we want to do good. And we can. And it may be a battle, but it's a battle we should strive to win everyday. And I think a hospital that teaches that...is something we need more of in this world. Now I know that bc we teach that unbiased there are people who have different faiths so they may act different, but I hope that we can all come together and help people as Jesus would have.
Okay, back to the orientation. We went to lunch. So glad I didn't bring my lunch. They actually gave us lunch! What?! It was delicious. Chicken strips and french fries. It was like high school all over again. WHY MUST DELICIOUS FOOD BE SO TERRIBLE FOR ME??? I REGRET NOTHING!!!
lol. ate lunch and then went back. Had a different speaker. This time we went over benefits and retirement. And let me just say. Whooo. Everything went over my head. It was SO COMPLICATED. AND SO EXPENSIVE! I must be a dolt bc I didn't understand a bit! I knew being an adult was hard and complicated, which is why I didn't want to do it!!! But, I can't turn back the clock! And turns out it's all online and so I can't even talk to a real person and I have to call the manager lady for the password and why does everything in the adult world comprise of making phone calls to each other????? This is my most hated form of communication!!!
So we actually got out early. Around 3:30. Turns out I bought the wrong scrubs. Paid 60$ for nothing. Apparently the scrubs needed to have the hospital logo on them. Screw me. Lol. So texted a classmate about my woe. She found a dealer somewhere in town that was able to get me a deal for used ones. They were a size smaller than I am. But I'll just lose weight. They were so much cheaper than news one, I had to do it.
I'm scared. Bc no one has called me about my schedule. You'd think they would. But they haven't. God give me the will and power to do what You have planned.
Thus ends day one! And I got paid for that! Hazzah!
Learned:
1. You gotta have dreams. You gotta have goals. An inspiration to hold onto. And when you find that. Hold onto it, bc it will get you through those days where you wonder what the heck am I doing? I learned something that I had forgotten bc of the stress of nursing school and clinicals:
I love helping people. I love people. I really do. I mean they can be total piranhas sometimes, but I think we forget that even though we are sin. We are also people chosen by God to be saved. He saw something in us. Something that was worth saving. And I think that's...incredible. We are worth it. And thus we should treat people like that. Bc they are worth it. Just like you are.
2. Being an adult is like being thrown into a tornado and expected to take reins of the tornado and ride it through a maze WITHOUT BREAKING ANYTHING. Otherwise known as epically failing. At least for me. lol. Idk how people do this. Idk how millions of people do this. I'm always worried I'm going to make a mistake. Hah, maybe that should be something on my improve on list. Anyways, I'm relying on my mom (she's a saint!) a lot right now bc I have no clue about these benefits and job and insurance and my head is spinning from the overload of information. Help me. Please. Build me a time machine.
Improve on:
1. Okay so there was a girl at our table. And she was really pretty. And she was really nice. And really outgoing. And bc I was a total loner my whole life, my first thought was to hate her. BC SHE HAD EVERYTHING. She was married and had 3 kids, but she looked like she was 20. Blond. Tall. Skinny. Pretty. AND FREAKING NICE. It killed me. I was green with envy. I was a jerk. Bc she's what I've always wanted to be and so at certain points I would catch myself being a jerk. Like not laughing when she said something funny. Not paying attention when she was talking. SERIOUSLY, I'M SUCH A JERK. AND I'M SO SORRY. I need to work on not caring about other people and concentrate on myself. Everybody has strengths and everybody has weaknesses. I don't know her life. I'm so sorry. But I did try to catch myself when I was being a jerk. I would catch myself thinking bad thoughts and just concentrate on what she was saying and take it as if she was someone not above average. lol, seriously I'm such a jerk. But I'm gonna work on it. It's a process, people!
2. Being more verbal. Okay so this is a life long goal. I want to shed my shyness bc I feel like it would be beneficial, but I also feel like a hypocrite if I do. Like I'm abandoning myself and trying to change who I am. And I grew up on that whole never compromise who you are to please others principle, so it's very conflicting. So I never really full wholeheartedly try to be loud and talkative bc it always feels...wrong. Idk. I'm still gonna work more on being able to answer questions and share stories in groups bc apparently that's how friends are made.
And I need friends you guys. I'm lonely. And apparently, I'm devoid of human contact. So thank you God for letting me meet that high school classmate! And for letting me survive my first day! May the days that come forth be according to Your Will and help me find the strength and courage to do as You have planned.
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