2nd day of orientation
Wow. Second day! lol. Still not on the floor yet. Still haven't got a call back from my manager lady. Still confused about log ins and passwords. Really they need to make all this a lot clearer bc I'm very confused and I'm already anxious so this adds onto my pile of anxious and I really have no clue what to do.
I'm guessing more phone calls. It's always calling people.
Really, I'm just waiting for the day that'll I'll know what's going on with my life.
Today was just computer training. We just learned charting. It was kind of different though bc we didn't have an in person trainer. Instead we had a teacher that was like a state away. It was nice but it was also different. Nice bc there wasn't somebody always watching us, but bad bc it was harder to get a word in sometimes and it was also hard to hear sometimes.
We learned short cuts and how to do the scanning and ordering and it was a lot of information. We even had a quiz at the end. Not for a grade...yet. Usually it's a 3 day in a row thing but this year they're trying a new thing where they have one day of training and then let us get on the floor and work and then come back in 3 weeks for another day so that we could have learned some of the stuff. Idk. They said we were guinea pigs. I don't like being a guinea pig. It seems like I'm always the one who has to test out the bad things that they chuck after trying it out once. Never have anything that I tested ever went into effect.
Honestly, I think it's me. O.o
Anyways that's all today really was. It was a pretty long day. Didn't have anyone I knew. Had to sit with classmates for lunch. Was actually expecting to sit alone, but they were nice enough to let me sit with them.
Learned:
1. charting is verrrrrrrry time consuming. I hope one day that there'll be like a digital pet that flys around with us and charts everything we do so that we can save time. I still feel like nurses are overworked, underpaid, and underappreciated. If they're going to give us such a high patient load, then they gotta make someway to cut back on charting. Bc at the end of the day, I don't want to be someone that performs just nursing skills. I want to be what the media portrays nursing as. I want to be able to sit there and listen to them. Be able to help them go through not such a great time in their life. And while skills are a part of being a nurse, it shouldn't be all that I do and it shouldn't be all paperwork either. IDK. I haven't got any experience, but I hope I don't get burnt out. but it's starting to look like that may be the case, and that makes me really sad.
2. people are realllllllly never what you make of them. some people are amazing and go above and beyond what you could have ever imagined for you. And for those people, I hope nothing but the best for them. Then there are others. The ones you know aren't really who they appear to be. The ones that once you leave their hearing distance will, probably talk bad about you bc they talk bad about everyone. sigh. I just want to say, it feels really bad to hear someone say mean things about you when they think you can't hear. I feel like it might almost be better for them to just say it to my face.
Improve on:
1. Try to interact with my peers more. Hey! I sat with them for lunch. Tried to smile and interact with them. They didn't kick me out. lol. but that's bc they're nice people...lol. I know! I'm so awkward!!! But I'm trying...I think. Most of the time. Please don't hate me..
2. Not be afraid to ask questions. I'm working on this. I asked a couple of questions bc I was and am still confused today. I never really got a straight answer though. But I'll keep trying. It makes me feel small to ask questions, but I'm gonna keep trying. Help me gather courage God and please help me get a thicker skin.
Sigh. I'm tired. Oh! But I did my first time clocking in and out! lol, I think that's so cool! It reminds me of spongebob. I'm ready! I'm ready! I'm ready!
But it's also kind of lame that they're so strict on what times you can clock in. I kind of wish they just gave us money for whatever our shift time says. But I understand the reasoning. Money~ lol, ain't it always.
got a math test tomorrow. still unsure of my schedule. Sigh. Okay, God. Whatever happens, always in Your hands. May You grant me the courage to do Your will as it is in Heaven, so be it on Earth.
I'm guessing more phone calls. It's always calling people.
Really, I'm just waiting for the day that'll I'll know what's going on with my life.
Today was just computer training. We just learned charting. It was kind of different though bc we didn't have an in person trainer. Instead we had a teacher that was like a state away. It was nice but it was also different. Nice bc there wasn't somebody always watching us, but bad bc it was harder to get a word in sometimes and it was also hard to hear sometimes.
We learned short cuts and how to do the scanning and ordering and it was a lot of information. We even had a quiz at the end. Not for a grade...yet. Usually it's a 3 day in a row thing but this year they're trying a new thing where they have one day of training and then let us get on the floor and work and then come back in 3 weeks for another day so that we could have learned some of the stuff. Idk. They said we were guinea pigs. I don't like being a guinea pig. It seems like I'm always the one who has to test out the bad things that they chuck after trying it out once. Never have anything that I tested ever went into effect.
Honestly, I think it's me. O.o
Anyways that's all today really was. It was a pretty long day. Didn't have anyone I knew. Had to sit with classmates for lunch. Was actually expecting to sit alone, but they were nice enough to let me sit with them.
Learned:
1. charting is verrrrrrrry time consuming. I hope one day that there'll be like a digital pet that flys around with us and charts everything we do so that we can save time. I still feel like nurses are overworked, underpaid, and underappreciated. If they're going to give us such a high patient load, then they gotta make someway to cut back on charting. Bc at the end of the day, I don't want to be someone that performs just nursing skills. I want to be what the media portrays nursing as. I want to be able to sit there and listen to them. Be able to help them go through not such a great time in their life. And while skills are a part of being a nurse, it shouldn't be all that I do and it shouldn't be all paperwork either. IDK. I haven't got any experience, but I hope I don't get burnt out. but it's starting to look like that may be the case, and that makes me really sad.
2. people are realllllllly never what you make of them. some people are amazing and go above and beyond what you could have ever imagined for you. And for those people, I hope nothing but the best for them. Then there are others. The ones you know aren't really who they appear to be. The ones that once you leave their hearing distance will, probably talk bad about you bc they talk bad about everyone. sigh. I just want to say, it feels really bad to hear someone say mean things about you when they think you can't hear. I feel like it might almost be better for them to just say it to my face.
Improve on:
1. Try to interact with my peers more. Hey! I sat with them for lunch. Tried to smile and interact with them. They didn't kick me out. lol. but that's bc they're nice people...lol. I know! I'm so awkward!!! But I'm trying...I think. Most of the time. Please don't hate me..
2. Not be afraid to ask questions. I'm working on this. I asked a couple of questions bc I was and am still confused today. I never really got a straight answer though. But I'll keep trying. It makes me feel small to ask questions, but I'm gonna keep trying. Help me gather courage God and please help me get a thicker skin.
Sigh. I'm tired. Oh! But I did my first time clocking in and out! lol, I think that's so cool! It reminds me of spongebob. I'm ready! I'm ready! I'm ready!
But it's also kind of lame that they're so strict on what times you can clock in. I kind of wish they just gave us money for whatever our shift time says. But I understand the reasoning. Money~ lol, ain't it always.
got a math test tomorrow. still unsure of my schedule. Sigh. Okay, God. Whatever happens, always in Your hands. May You grant me the courage to do Your will as it is in Heaven, so be it on Earth.
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