The Night Before.

I'm literally about to keel over, I'm so sleepy, so excuse my gibberish.

Tomorrow will be the first day of my orientation as an RN on a neurology floor.

I'm a thousand parts scared and 0% excited. But I'm hoping I can fake it till I make it. After googling neurology floor and what first day is like, I didn't get much. I think the only helpful one was a poster that said today would be just going over policy and benefits. I hope so. But I'm wondering how that's going to take 10 hours...even with an hour lunch break that's 9 hours...

Idk.

So, I'm just gonna wing it.

I'm debating between business casual or scrubs. I'm leaning towards scrubs bc then I don't have to think about what I wear and the only business pants I own don't fit me...but I also have to go to chick fil a afterwards...and I really hate going anywhere in my scrubs...

Idk.

I really don't know.

But what I do know is that I'm scared. I'm freaking out. I'm just thankful I fixed my sleeping schedule so that I can sleep before tomorrow.

Oh and I get July 4th off. They were so nice about that.

I'm nervous about the beginning. Who do I sit by? What do I say? Do we have to do introductions?

I have social anxiety. I am an introvert. I am as shy as they come.

But I'm also a nurse.

Or at least trying to be one.

Go figure.

Okay. I want to freak out more, but I'm so tired. I need to sleep. Good night. Hopefully all goes well. It's in your hands God.

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